one step at a time

so it's been half a week of the drinking cap i placed on myself, and so far so good. saturday one of d's new roommate's friends invited me to join them on a pub crawl through the richmond, and d and i worked really hard to communicate and make sure we got through ok... and it worked! i will admit that it was kind of hard at times to work at talking to new people, but i think that ultimately it worked in my favor.

i ended up spending a lot of time with the friend who invited me along, who i really enjoy. he comes across as kind of arrogant (ok, really arrogant), but had been sweet to me the whole time. in addition, he's ridiculously witty, which gets me every time. i worked hard not to follow him around, but to talk to interesting other people throughout the pub crawl... and by the end he was touching my waist and dragging me into a lamp store. sure enough, he invited me back to his house to watch labyrinth after the crawl. i mean, really? labyrinth? a man after my own heart. i have to admit that i really loved that he knew as many of the lines and lyrics that i did, and although i know he used it to get me in bed, i really don't mind.

while i am proud that i didn't have sex with him, even though i wanted to, i am a little worried that i am falling into a fairly established pattern. he and i have been on gchat all week, and my heart does a little pitter patter every time i hear from him. i know he likes me, but he has some chick on the east coast. i need to be very careful of emotionally unavailable guys, and although i am just thinking of this as an interesting new guy who is fun to play with, i fear that i am not as strong as louisa when it comes to this. she has always been so good at not letting her heart get all tied up in this stuff until it's appropriate, and i keep wishing i could do it too. as a result, i keep ending up in these situations to "test myself," which ends badly. i am going to do my very, very best to focus on the present when it comes to this new guy and not worry about the future, but i also need to just breathe and listen to my heart.